I went home yesterday feeling quite depressed and troubled
by the stresses that’s been attacking me lately… work issues… financial
problems… my s.o… some crazy stupid girls (and I
don’t wanna elaborate any further)… and then just a
few days ago, I was faced with a realization within myself that could change my
entire future forever, if this thing in me doesn’t get fixed right away…
I was about to break down! I kept thinking, “What have I done to deserve this?
Dammit! I don’t deserve this shit!!!”
I couldn’t be more wrong…
As I got home and turned on the TV… what flashed before me
was more than enough to shut me up from my whining… At least 60 dead bodies of
men, women, and children being dug out from the ruins of what had been a
refugee shelter in Qana, South Lebanon. The destruction was caused by an
Israeli bombing gone wrong. They say it was a tragic mistake… I say that’s BS!
It’s a fucking massacre and a serious war crime! If you’re aware of what’s
happening on that part of the globe, then you’d know what I’m talking about…
That instant, I felt a pang of guilt and shame for being so
self-centered, thinking that I don’t deserve the problems I’m going through
right now. Dammit, these civilians do not deserve what they’re going through
right now! Specially these kids… OMG! Most of the victims were kids!!! I heard
one survivor say, “There’s a four-month old baby still there under the
rubbles…” My heart just broke… and in as much as I want to do something to
help… there’s really nothing that I can do but cry and mourn for the loss of
innocent lives.
I felt worthless…
Funny how we can sometimes think that we are the center of
the universe… that our concerns are so beyond everything else, we feel there’s
nothing more tragic than the suffering that we’re experiencing right now.
*Knock, knock* Reality check: if you are reading this now, you’re luckier than
millions of other people out there who are illiterate and do not know how to
read… and even luckier coz you’re probably reading this from your computer and
in the comfort of your home, yet some people do not even know where they’re
gonna sleep tonight.
Actually it’s not funny at all… it’s stupid! It’s stupid and
selfish… And I admit, I was stupid and selfish for a while to think I’m too
good to be having these problems. I know I wrote a lot of entries here bitching
about my everyday hang-ups, and I know most of you do that too. It’s human to
complain, however, it’s not fair to think that we deserve better than most,
because in reality, we don’t. I agree that we all deserve to be happy… but
don’t try to compensate your happiness by doing something even more stupid
just because you think you deserve
better.
Before doing anything drastic, open your eyes and see beyond
the little world that you’re moving on… you’ll find that you’re not the most
miserable person in the whole universe after all. Open your eyes and make
yourself aware of your surroundings… you’ll find there are more to life than
your own petty desires… The tragedy in Qana is just one of the many tragedies
that are happening around the world everyday… So instead of whining and
complaining and fighting over insignificant issues, do something that could
make a difference that could bring out something good… if not for others, at
least for your own sake. Who knows, it
could bring out the good in others as well…
Open your eyes people… it’s gonna be worth the view…
but more importantly, worth the change in you…
Please help pray for the souls of those who have been sacrificed in the ongoing war in Lebanon. And please help pray so that finally, this war can be put to an end. Thank you for reading.
