Simple kind of life…

i woke up today and found you’re not here beside me..
i knew right then and there that things are back to normal..

"alone again… *sigh*"

i dragged myself out of bed to start what had always been a normal day for me..
and thought to myself i should just stay in bed and go back to sleep..
at least in my sleep you would always be with me in my dreams..
i’ve gotten used to opening my eyes everyday to the sight of you..
then i would caress your face.. memorize each line.. each scar.. each feature..
and when i do, you’d pull me in closer.. and snuggle with me right back to sleep.

i always wished for that moment to last forever…

was it just yesterday that i saw you off the airport?
right now it feels like it’s been forever since you left..
i’m missing you even more, now that things are back to normal..

i’m not used to normal anymore..

now, i long for lazy days and cozy nights..
like what i always had with you..
i long for the impulsive decisions and the unknown..
the mystery of being with you..
i long for the crazy banter and the arguments..
the excitement that you put me through..
but most of all i long for your love..
i long for what is simply called YOU..

i know i promised i won’t be sad..
for you promised it won’t be long till i see you back home..
so i try to pull myself together..
for there are things to be done..
plans to fulfill..
future to build..
i am determined to make it happen..
still, i can’t help but awake with a heavy heart..
when i see the empty space beside me..
reminding me..

yes.. things have now gone back to normal alright..

and i can’t wait for you to turn my world upside-down again…..