Simple kind of life…

All my life, I have lived in silence…
refusing to let anyone enter the darkness of my thoughts…
so as to protect myself, and the people that i cared the most..
for i thought it was a sign of strength.. of maturity..
and that in my silence would then come peace..
as well as what i thought would be happiness..
if not for me, at least for others..
for i never wanted to hurt anyone..
thinking, it was always better me than them..

and so it goes.. in my silence i gained nothin but pain..
and what i thought would strenghten me,
has instead made me more vulnerable..
as every thought i keep sucks the energy out of me..
and all the secrets i keep..
would haunt me to the depths of my soul..
thus, it gave me no peace of mind..
nor did it make ammends to the conflicts i encounter
with the people that surround me..
and contrary to my belief, I hurt, not only myself..
but the people that i love.. and those who love me..
this is not what i wanted.. so this has got to stop..

so i am breaking my silence..
the silence that has numbed the senses out of me..
the silence that has sinked me into utter depression..
i will not allow myself to get hurt again..
by anyone.. most specially by me.

i am breaking my silence..
for i refuse to succumb to misery, no more..
i will open myself to the beauty of the world..
and let the sun shed light to the darkness of my being..

i am breaking my silence..
the defeaning silence that has disabled me from listening..
i will let the music of life enchant me..
and i will sway to the tune of joyful thoughts..

i am breaking my silence..
because finally, someone saw right through me..
and cracked the barriers that has kept me frozen
through the power of love that he gave me..

so today, i am breaking my silence..
and will let your love compel me to speak..
i will shout to the top of my lungs..
of how your love has set me free..